"Who Am I?"

Who Am I?
by Dietrich Bonhoeffer

Who am I? They often tell me

I stepped from my cell’s confinement

Calmly, cheerfully, firmly,

Like a squire from his country-house.

Who am I? They often tell me

I used to speak to my warders

Freely and friendly and clearly,

As though it were mine to command.

Who am I? They also tell me

I bore the days of misfortune

Equally, smilingly, proudly,

Like one accustomed to win.

Am I then really all that which other men tell of?

Or am I only what I myself know of myself?

Restless and longing and sick, like a bird in a cage,

Struggling for breath, as though hands were

compressing my throat,

Yearning for colors, for flowers, for the voices of birds,

Thirsting for words of kindness, for neighborliness,

Tossing in expectation of great events,

Powerlessly trembling for friends at an infinite distance,

Weary and empty at praying, at thinking, at making,

Faint, and ready to say farewell to it all?

Who am I? This or the other?

Am I one person today and tomorrow another?

Am I both at once? A hypocrite before others,

And before myself a contemptibly woebegone weakling?

Or is something within me still like a beaten army,

Fleeing in disorder from victory already achieved?

Who am I? They mock me, these lonely questions of mine.

Whoever I am, Thou knowest, 0 God, I am Thine!

March 4,1946

One Flaw In Women (Author: Unknown)

One Flaw In Women
(Author: Unknown)

By the time the Lord made Woman,
He was into his sixth day of working overtime..
An angel appeared and said,
"Why are you spending so much time on this one?"
And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?
She has to be completely washable, but not plastic, have over 200
movable parts, all replaceable and able to run on diet coke and
leftovers, have a lap that can hold four children at one time, and a
kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart -and
she will do everything with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.
"Only two hands!? No way!
And that's just on the standard model?
That's too much work for one day.
Wait until tomorrow to finish."

"But I won't," the Lord protested.
"I am close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own
heart.
She already heals herself when she is sick AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.
"But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed,
"but I have also made her tough.
You have no idea what she can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

The Lord replied,
"Not only will she be able to think,
she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel, noticing something, reached out, touched the woman's cheek.
"Oops , it looks like you have a leak in this model.
I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak,"
the Lord corrected,
"That's a tear!"
"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow,
her pain, her disappointment, her love, her loneliness, her grief and
her pride"
The angel was impressed.
"You are a genius, Lord.
You thought of everything!
Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!
Women have strengths that amaze men.
They bear hardships and they carry burdens, but they hold happiness,
love and joy.
They smile when they want to scream.
They sing when they want to cry.
They cry when they are happy
and laugh when they are nervous.
They fight for what they believe in.
They stand up to injustice.
They don't take "no" for an answer if there's a better solution They go
without so their family can have.
They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.
They love unconditionally.
They cry when their children excel; cheer when friends get awards.
They are happy when they hear about a birth or a wedding.
Their hearts break when a friend dies.
They grieve at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when
they think there is no strength left.
They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.
Women come in all shapes, sizes and colors.
They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail to show how much they care.
The heart of a woman is what makes the world keep turning.
They bring joy, hope and love.
They have compassion and ideals.
They give moral support to their family and friends.
Women have vital things to say and everything to give.
THERE IS ONLY ONE FLAW IN A WOMAN:

THEY ARE NOT AWARE OF THEIR WORTH!

The world of Anatomy & Physiology

I really should be studying right now...like R-E-A-L-L-Y. This weekend is do or die! Coffee and espressos will be my bread and butter for the next 4 days, which is when I take my 1st Exam for this semester. Topics: Endocrine System and Reproductive System. Buckle up!!

~blessings~

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43 Things: Abstain from Online Dating sites for (at least) 1 month (straight)

PERFECT EXPLAINATION...FOUND!

Ok, so, learning and growing blah blah but here’s the thing, I found it in black and white with my own two eyes I tell ya…MY..OWN…2..EYES!!.. http://boomers.msn.com/articleDP.aspx?cp-documentid=422362 (It’s an article written with the ‘boomers’ audience in mind but it really clarifies what I experienced with this guy (in his real early 30’s btw).

After reading that, I deleted his number out of my phone. It’s clear that I don’t need it anymore. I feel sorry for people like that. So hurt, claiming to have rised above it…living in the present…but the way he lives is still defined by his past. It’s so sad. It makes me grateful to have a HUGE heart that heals miracleously as if never bruised once.

I won’t get that phone call and IF I do, what there is there left to say? “I pray someday you meet someone you feel safe enough with to let your guard down”....is enough that I left him with.

As for me? The ‘hunt’ is over. I came to the realization a while ago that it’s unatural for females to chase and hunt and that why we are left with this empty “huh??” feeling when we do. Let the males do what is encoded in their gentics to do! And at the end of the day, when the hunt is successful, and the hunter catches his prey, think back to bibical times. Adam had it all, living in paradise with the woman made of him, for him and YET Eve was the one who was still left unsatisfied. Satisfy yourself first, by yourself and for yourself and then ladies paradise will truely be ours! With OR withOUT Adam!

_blessings

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