PERFECT EXPLAINATION...FOUND!
Ok, so, learning and growing blah blah but here’s the thing, I found it in black and white with my own two eyes I tell ya…MY..OWN…2..EYES!!.. http://boomers.msn.com/articleDP.aspx?cp-documentid=422362 (It’s an article written with the ‘boomers’ audience in mind but it really clarifies what I experienced with this guy (in his real early 30’s btw).
After reading that, I deleted his number out of my phone. It’s clear that I don’t need it anymore. I feel sorry for people like that. So hurt, claiming to have rised above it…living in the present…but the way he lives is still defined by his past. It’s so sad. It makes me grateful to have a HUGE heart that heals miracleously as if never bruised once.
I won’t get that phone call and IF I do, what there is there left to say? “I pray someday you meet someone you feel safe enough with to let your guard down”....is enough that I left him with.
As for me? The ‘hunt’ is over. I came to the realization a while ago that it’s unatural for females to chase and hunt and that why we are left with this empty “huh??” feeling when we do. Let the males do what is encoded in their gentics to do! And at the end of the day, when the hunt is successful, and the hunter catches his prey, think back to bibical times. Adam had it all, living in paradise with the woman made of him, for him and YET Eve was the one who was still left unsatisfied. Satisfy yourself first, by yourself and for yourself and then ladies paradise will truely be ours! With OR withOUT Adam!
blessings
©2007 NJW
4 comments:
Lord,
Please guide me, guide him.
Grant me the serenity...
To be in a state where your thoughts numb you, thoughts of a person, a man, thoughts of missing him or missing knowing that you have something to look forward to, someone to share your life with. But is the weight of loneliness worth one moment of bliss?
~blessings~
© 2007 NJW
"The best things happen when you least 'Inspect' it."
"I am not a victim, I am an observer."
You know, I like this one the best: "God determines who walks into your life....
it's up to you to decide who you let walk away,
who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."
I have no idea what I'm doing. Maybe I'm too eager, too open.
I have to learn how to take my own advice. It's funny how wisdom stirs about in my head but when I leave there and re-enter this world, I dettach from that wise being and feed this mortal flesh.
OPEN YOUR EYES!
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